For me, family is not an easy concept. Its been a lifetime of torture for me. I've had many people tell me that I can create my own family and while that is true, it doesn't necessarily lessen the impact of the concept on my life. Believe me, I've spent years trying to "create a family" and trying to discard the "family" that is nothing more than torture to me.
I have not talked to most of my immediate family since 1991. At my mom's funeral, I had limited engagement with one of my two brothers. Yet, I wanted to avoid them and they wanted to avoid me. I struggled with anxiety at the mere mention of the name of anyone in my family that it was almost paralyzing to me.
