Monday, December 22, 2014

Letting Go

Once again, I'm met with challenges in life.  Aren't we all!  Its never easy it seems whether it is work related, family, business or just every day life.  Some days are easier and carefree than others, but some days just create drama.

I realize it is all part of my own growth and learning process.  Letting go, just isn't easy for me.  I often feel the emotional entanglements of everything going on around me.  I often feel what others feel to the degree that sometimes it clouds my own comprehension of what is going on within me.  I know that and I get it, but sometimes it doesn't make it any easier.

A recent situation came up and it was one of those that could have easily taken me under.  I really tried not to shield myself from what was going on and staying engaged with it, but I tried to not become emotionally attached to it.  Letting go was something I was working on.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

When Life Becomes Worry

I've been in this place so many times in my life.  In high-school, I was admitted in my senior year because of what they initially thought was appendicitis.  Later, just in the nick of time before surgery was to take place, they realized it was nothing more than an ulcer.  Okay, nothing more than an ulcer sounds minimizing.

When life becomes worry, its difficult.  I know.  I've been there.  When life becomes worry, it isn't easy to find the way out or the door that opens to a world beyond this.  Life becomes a big giant that can be slain with a small stone, but is often so fearful and large that we run for cover.

Of course later on in life, I never learned how to get rid of worry and so I would get headaches (migraines) and all kinds of stomach issues and I even ended up going all the way to holding stuff in so much that I went through a Conversion Disorder.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

When Life Gets To Be Too Much

Sometimes there are moments in life that just plain suck.  They are crappy.  They make you question everything and anything about life.  Sometimes when life gets to be too much, you feel like the groundhog that wants to crawl back in its hole and hide.

When life gets to be too much, its all you can do to make it through the day.  It is all you can do to deal with that moment.  It is all you can do to even comprehend the moment you are facing in your day.  None of it is easy.  None of it is wanted, but often you don't have a choice in what transpires.

When life gets to be too much, it is then that you have to hunker down, find strength and refuge in the support around you.  It is in those moments, it is okay to not feel as strong or enough or that you have what you need for that particular moment.  It is okay to feel inadequate.  We can't always be strong on our own and sometimes we need others around us to lean on through those difficult times.

Monday, December 15, 2014

Talking Without Listening

Time and time again, I see just how disconnected we are becoming as a human species.  Communication is poor at best and yet, we have all these communication devices to help us stay in touch.  It is really sad to watch if you sit back and take it all in.

Listening is the key skill that we've missed.  I see so many talk without listening.  Its like everyone has more on their mind of what to say, than to spend a split second listening.  Everyone has their minds running at such a fast rate and their nervous system pumped up as if it was on steroids, only to skip the part of listening to another person.

The past week I saw this happen so many times, it almost made my head completely spin around.  Talking without listening was at every corner I turned.  I remember the one lady in a Fedex office that didn't even know what I was trying to do, but she was already giving me an answer.  I remember the support person on the phone that started telling me what I needed to do, long before they were aware of what the situation was.

Thursday, December 11, 2014

The World Only Wants

The world only wants to see us in the way they want to see us.  No matter what is going on, the world just wants us to hide it, disguise it, and keep it out of plain view.

The world doesn't want to know were hurting.  The world wants us to put the big boy pants on and make it look like is all okay and that were pain free.

The world doesn't want to know were angry or upset.  Society wants us to keep those things to our self.  For they are our own to deal with and concerns no one else.

The world doesn't want us to shine the light of truth to the ugly side of life.  The world wants us to turn the flashlight off and act as if the ugly side doesn't exist.

The world wants all of us to share happy thoughts and present to the world that all is one big smiley face.  The world doesn't want us to show the rough edges of life or the difficult moments.