Suicide

Mindy McCready
Ten Thousand Angels

It saddens me to see anyone commit suicide.  I've been in those depths before and I know how tough those moments are.  Where logic nor relationships have much pull - only unconditional love that is administered in very simple ways.

When you're in those depths, you don't resonate with words, but with the energy of those who truly understand the ground you are walking upon.  In those moments, the feeling of lonesomeness, isolation and desperateness feed upon themselves making things much worse than they seem - only in that moment, this awareness is not readily apparent.

I'm thankful I have moved past these rough moments in my own life and for some reason greater than I can see - I am still here.  I know how difficult it is for others and I cry for those who don't make it.  We don't live in a society where they are supported or understood.  Just know, that I'm here for anyone who feels this way because I truly understand what this feels like to contemplate and attempt suicide.

You may also want to read a previous blog post I wrote, The Illusion Of Suicide.  It talks about my thoughts and briefly talks about some of my own experiences.  Please - if you are struggling with this, reach out to someone and if the first person doesn't listen or understand, find another one.  There is hope!

Humans Beat Their Head Against The Wall

Buck Brannaman's
Facebook Page Picture
Buck The Film

This quote comes from Buck Brannaman's Facebook page.  I love his quotes because they are always spot on. I could not agree more with the follow statement.

"With a horse, if you make it easy for him to do the right thing, that's what he will logically do, but it's not necessarily true with the human. You will see humans that will beat their heads against the wall rather than open the door and walk through it." - Buck Brannaman

If you have not seen the movie, "Buck", it is an excellent one to see!

Killing Ourselves With High Medical Bills

In a recent article in Time Magazine, a detailed account is given of someone experiencing life threatening cancer and not having adequate insurance to cover it.  In this scenario that was presented, the couple did have insurance, but since they were self employed, the policy was not enough to cover the costs of cancer treatment at the MD Anderson Cancer Center in Houston.  You can read more of the details in the Time Magazine article, Why Medical Bills Are Killing Us.

Even though we are killing ourselves with high medical bills in this country, I am not trying to vilify MD Anderson Cancer Center.  In fact, I believe they are helping to bring together all facets of healing and health care.  The only thing that bothers me in this article is that their president is also tied financially with some major pharmaceutical companies.  I find it sad that there is this close of relationship between health care services and companies that are profiting from the same thing.  In my mind, it is a conflict of interest and you will have to decide for yourself how you feel about it.

Of course we can sit here all day and blame someone or everyone for the high medical bills.  Regardless of who we blame, each one of us individually are killing ourselves with the state of healthcare in this country.  It is up to each one of us to change how we perceive what health care and healing is, rather than just following the status quo and doing what society dictates we should do.  I am very adamant on this, because I know that while medical care is necessary, it often negates the individual's role