I don't even recall the hour of the night, but I'm guessing somewhere in the 3am to 4am time frame. All of the sudden, I was awake and my neck was hurting with excruciating pain. I got up and went into the bathroom and could feel my shoulder muscles and my neck muscles as tight as could be.
The muscles were so tense that I think a steel rod would not have been as strong. Any movement just exacerbated the situation. The pain was excruciatingly tense. It seemed like no end was in sight.
I tried to do some relaxation things that I know are helpful, but they didn't really work. I tried to focus and visualize letting go of tension and pain, but it still was there. Finally I just went back to bed and laid down feeling the intense pain with every movement. I almost took an aleve but fought against doing that.
After I laid back down, I must have finally drifted off to sleep because I did not wake up until 9:30 in the morning. My neck was not feeling as bad as it was in the middle of the night, just a few hours earlier. However after a little movement, I could feel the residual tension and pain that was still there.
I got up and the more my body woke up, the more I felt the pain and tension. It was one of those moments that you just feel grumpy and growly from the pain. It was a feeling of exhaustion. It feels draining.
As the day went, the pain and tension was still there. I continued to do relaxation things to help let go of it. I continued to try and shift my focus. Laying in the hammock felt good as I watched the trees sway in the wind.
Writing this, the pain and tension has subsided a lot more or maybe I've just numbed out to it and I don't feel it much at this point. I have resisted taking an aleve because I hate taking any type of medication. It just keeps you from dealing with what is at hand. Yes, sometimes I do take something because the pain gets too much for me to bear.
What this is all about, I don't know. I just know that it started from a moment of anxiety yesterday when I smelled onions cooking as food was being rewarmed. There is something behind all of this, but right now its a mystery. It is just another body memory that wakes me up at night.
After all, it wasn't but a couple of weeks ago when my back did the very same thing. It was so painful that I could barely move in bed or get up. The pain grew with such intensity and then disappeared by the time I woke up.
A story to be continued...
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