This is part 2 of a 3 part series. Please read Part 1 first.
Finally, I gave up and went to the pool to do some activities that would help let go of what was kicking up in me. I knew there was plenty of anger there, if not just from this frustrating physical pain. As I got into the pool, I began to think about all that was irritating the daylights out of me at this point in time. It is not difficult to come up with a list right now as there is many stressors weighing on my life.
As I started this process, I just started saying the words out loud. Since they are personal, I’ll not share them here but if you were doing this, you would just connect with your own list. It could even be just one item on your list. There is no right or wrong list, just what is impacting your life in this moment. Through this part of the exercise, I take my hands and push the water around me in the pool as hard and forceful as I can. To summarize, you are saying the words from your list and pushing the water at the same time.
At first, it was difficult for me to truly connect with this. Even though I was alone, I found it difficult to let go and just connect with these words that were causing great frustration and anger in my life. It took me a couple of times but once I finally connected to it, I think I could have moved all the water in the pool with one stroke of my arms. When I finally got to the point that the anger and frustration were connecting with my movements and I was nearing the point where I could not physically continue this, I took a deep breath. Next, I plunged my head down in the water and began screaming and pounding my fists against the water. I did this until I had to come back up for air.
I could feel a tremble through my body. I could feel the agitation kicking up a little stronger than it had previously. After giving myself a few moments to catch my breath, I once again started to repeat the words from my list. As I repeated the words, I began the arm movements with the water. Once I felt like I had built up to the point of exploding like a volcano, than I took the deep breath, plunged myself into the water and screamed as hard as I could scream.
Please come back tomorrow for Part 3 of this three part series.
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