Taken Advantage Of In Life

This may end up being a post that is a rant and there's a possibility it may not even make it to the light of day.  I get so tired by people trying to take advantage of me in life.  I'm talented and skilled and I think fast on my feet.  I get that.

Unfortunately some with egos the size of the sun feel that this means they can take advantage of me.  All they care about is the almighty dollar or making themselves appear good.  That's it!  I know I'm not the only one to face such a situation.

Its hard to find people that truly respect you, care about you, and want to do whats best for all involved.  Even they get compromised by the big egos and small minded people.

I don't understand humans and this is one of those moments my brain does not have adequate capacity to understand.  Those that think and actually have control over your day annoy me.  I'd like to look at them, peer into their brain if they have one and ask, do you only just look out for yourself while screwing the other person.

Group Think In Healing

Dr. Bessel Van der Kolk talks about a study where it was found that 12.4 percent of child in foster care received antipsychotic medications compared to 1.4 percent of children in general.  According to what he writes in this book, The Body Keeps The Score, these medications make the children more manageable and less aggressive.


As he continues the discussion, he talks about drugs becoming so profitable, that major medical journals rarely publish studies on nondrug treatments.  People who look at treatments outside of the drug realm are typically marginalized as alternative and generally not funded.

We see group think in healing within medical establishments all too often.  As long as you keep those hospital doors open and you keep those surgery and exam centers bringing in the dollars, you are considered to be acceptable.  About the time that you suggest the body can heal on its own without all these medications, procedures, vaccinations, and treatments, you're considered to be a nut and someone everyone should turn away from.   Group think is what is required and the only thing that is permissible.

Antidepssants Saved My Life but Overused

At one time in my life, I needed pills to help me make it through my day.  I'm not as much a proponent of antidepressants as I once was, but I still see there need.  Of course, I realize that taking antidepressants without doing the hard work in life is like using a paper cup to bail water from a sinking row boat.

Antidepressants saved my life.  Without them, I'm not sure I would have made it this far in life.  The first time I started on them, I could not even function.  I couldn't even bring myself to walk out my door or get up from my hiding place on the couch.  I was shaking and having anxiety attacks.  I was not the least bit focused on anything in my day.  I would collapse at the first sign of any moment where stress was present.

Years had passed and while I had been off of antidepressants for some time, I began to go through the next phase of my healing journey.  Unfortunately, this part left me for clinging to the smallest thread of life in my day.  The nightmares were horror.  The participation in life was without feeling and emotion.  I longed for my life to end.  I actively looked for a way to kill myself every day.