Letting Go Is Hard To Do

It seems like I can practice it, but then it comes on with the fury of a storm.  I'm just saying that letting go is hard to do.  Some days are better than others and some days are harder than others.

The stress and frustration level is high, but maybe that's the point.  Maybe it is the lesson I need to learn.  Maybe it is teaching me how to deal with high levels of stress and frustration.  So far, I haven't figured it out, but letting go of the stress and frustration is hard to do.

Disappointment gets to me.  I hate it when other people intentionally let me down.  I try to look past it and I try to move beyond it, but let's face it - letting go is hard to do.  I'm not the only one that struggles with this.  I believe it is part of the human experience.

Through all the experiences in life, it sometimes has been pretty hard to let go.  I've been through some horrible abuse and torture and while I've managed to dump a lot of it, I'm always amazed at how many layers of the onion there is.  It isn't easy and its a continual process of allowing things to surface, work through them, and forgive those moments.

I'm Tired Of Misery

What if for today only, I drew a line in the sand?  What if for today only, I said enough is enough?  I'm tired of misery.  I'm tired of the struggle.  What if for today I said, no more!

My body has struggled physically over the past few months.  I feel it through tension in my neck, my shoulders, my arms and sometimes my legs.  I feel it in pain that travels my body like a traveling circus.  I feel it in my emotions; ready to snap at others and feeling so full of anger and frustration.

What if for today, I said no to misery.  What if I began to change how I view the current situation I am in?  I really have nothing to lose because what I am doing at the current moment is not working.

Sometimes we just have to draw a line in the sand and so no more.  I'm tired of misery.  I know that isn't easy to do as I've been practicing misery my entire life.  The misery almost seems like a nagging friend that I do not want.